Today started off kind of sad for me. When we droped all of the kids off at school Aaron did not want to let me go. He did let me go and then looked at me and cryed. Christopher walked him in the school with his arm around Aarons shoulder. That was a sweet moment for Christopher. I of course cryed as soon as Aaron could not see me any more. I feel so guilty not being there for the kids every afternoon when they get home from school. It makes me resent having to work. Daniel tells me to quit, but I just cant right now. I am going to quit after I have another child.

Marsha's birthday is coming in 23 days. She will be 11 years old. My baby is growing up. I miss when she was little and had little curly pigtails and needed me! She is almost as tall as me and she has the same shoe size as me. I want so much to be there for my kids. I pray that things work out so that the surgery goes well and I have a good outcome. Hopefully we can start trying right away and hopefully it wont take to long for me to get pregnant.

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Julie had her baby last Thursday he is so cute. We went to see him Sunday. That just confirmed even more that I want another baby! He weighed 7 lbs and 10 oz.