The only good thing that happened today.....

I got the Clear Blue Easy Fertility Monitor through the mail from Stephanie!!

She even put a really sweet note in it!! Thank you so much Stephanie!!!!

Now I just have to order the test sticks.

Our bad luck continues.....

Today has been a horrible day and well it just gets worse......

we had a flat tire in the way home!!! A guy was riding beside us pointing to our tire. We got to Flying J and it was completly flat. I am so supprised that it did not blow out. Daniel was able to put a plug in it and we did make it home.

My Boys got to sleep in their own beds

and I did not have any problems out of them. Their beds have been in storage for eight months and they have been sharing a double bed. I bought them a new comforter and sheets and etc... and they were so glad to have their own space. Their room is the only clean on in the house right now. I hope to have everything unpacked and put away by Sunday.

Bad Day

Today started out bad as soon as I got out of bed and realized that we were running late. I just feel really down and fell like all of my efforts are going un noticed. I know I am having a pitty party but I just can not help it. I just feel like crying and I am not sure why. I am on CD-27 & 10-DPO. I will test Monday if AF doesn't show her ugly head. She more than likley will though. I do not feel optimistic about much of anything right now. Marsha stayed home today because she fell asleep doing her homework and did not get it finished. It is her own fault though. She has at least three hours in the afternoon at my moms to do her homework and she will not do it. She waits till we get home at around 8pm. I feel like I am giving her permission to not do it cause I let her stay home, but I would feel worse if I sent her and she got a bad grade. I am punishing her though. I told her that she could not go to soccer this weekend. That is the only thing that I can take away from her that she loves. There is nothing else she really cares about.

Old Photo

I took this picture around this time last year and just never did anything with it. I found it the other day and decided to play with it and now I love it.

Clouds

If you know me you know that I love to take pictures of clouds. I find them so amazing and beautiful. Here are a few I got after leaving the Wal-Mart on Lakeland Dr. on Sunday.

Aarons Soccer Tournment

Aaron's team won all of their soccer games on Sat. and went to the finals on Sun. They lost that game by one point in sudden death overtime. They did wonderful!! Click on each picture to make it bigger.

My Aaron got hurt today.....

Just as I got to the daycare to pick up the boys Aaron came in dripping blood and crying his eyes out. He fell on some of the playground equipment and hit his mouth and his two bottom teeth went through his bottom lip. It looked like someone bit his lip. The teeth went all the way through but did not make his teeth budge. He had to have 3 stitches put in the front and one put on the inside. He was so good during all of this. I could not believe how well he was taking it. ME on the other had got sick to my stomach and almost fainted at the sight of it.

2006 Yearbook Pictures

My children are looking so grown up.

My Baby is getting so BIG.

I hate that he is growing up. I miss holding him in my arms. Time flys by so fast.

Julie & Chad's Baby "Will"

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I Made A Hard Decision Today

To let the doctor put Aaron on medicine for ADHD.
Below are signs and symptoms for ADHD and almost all of them Aaron has. It is been getting harder and harder for Aaron to control his self at school and at home. Our family doctor refered us to the University before summer this year and she said Aaron was borderline ADHD, but her advice was to watch super nanny. WTH???

I have been getting letters and phone calls from his teacher all this school time. I get so tired of hearing bad things about my child. He is not bad and he is not dumb or stupid. In fact he is very smart he just can not control some things. Some behavior he can not understand why it is wrong or that it is wrong at all.

I feel really guilty for putting him on the meds, but we are on our last leg dealing with this. If the meds affect him in ways he or I do not like I will take him off of them and pull him out of school and home school him. I love my child and would not do anything or let anyone else do anything to put him is harms way. My job is to protect him and I will do that job at all costs!!

I had a few people tell me that I am crazy for trying the medicine. They are not the ones having to deal with the problem or watch your child wonder and cry because he does not understand why he gets in trouble.

DSM-IV Criteria for ADHDI. Either A or B:

Six or more of the following symptoms of inattention have been present for at least 6 months to a point that is disruptive and inappropriate for developmental level:

Inattention
-Often does not give close attention to details or makes careless mistakes in schoolwork, work, or other activities.
-Often has trouble keeping attention on tasks or play activities. -Often does not seem to listen when spoken to directly.
-Often does not follow instructions and fails to finish schoolwork, chores, or duties in the workplace (not due to oppositional behavior or failure to understand instructions). -Often has trouble organizing activities.
-Often avoids, dislikes, or doesn't want to do things that take a lot of mental effort for a long period of time (such as schoolwork or homework). -Often loses things needed for tasks and activities (e.g. toys, school assignments, pencils, books, or tools). -Is often easily distracted. -Is often forgetful in daily activities.

Six or more of the following symptoms of hyperactivity-impulsivity have been present for at least 6 months to an extent that is disruptive and inappropriate for developmental level:

Hyperactivity
-Often fidgets with hands or feet or squirms in seat.
-Often gets up from seat when remaining in seat is expected.
-Often runs about or climbs when and where it is not appropriate (adolescents or adults may feel very restless).
-Often has trouble playing or enjoying leisure activities quietly. -Is often "on the go" or often acts as if "driven by a motor".
-Often talks excessively.

Impulsivity
-Often blurts out answers before questions have been finished.
-Often has trouble waiting one's turn. -Often interrupts or intrudes on others (e.g., butts into conversations or games).

Some symptoms that cause impairment were present before age 7 years. Some impairment from the symptoms is present in two or more settings (e.g. at school/work and at home).
There must be clear evidence of significant impairment in social, school, or work functioning. The symptoms do not happen only during the course of a Pervasive Developmental Disorder, Schizophrenia, or other Psychotic Disorder. The symptoms are not better accounted for by another mental disorder (e.g. Mood Disorder, Anxiety Disorder, Dissociative Disorder, or a Personality Disorder).

Based on these criteria, three types of ADHD are identified:-ADHD, Combined Type: if both criteria 1A and 1B are met for the past 6 months
-ADHD, Predominantly Inattentive Type: if criterion 1A is met but criterion 1B is not met for the past six months
-ADHD, Predominantly Hyperactive-Impulsive Type: if Criterion 1B is met but Criterion 1A is not met for the past six months.

Aaron made a GOAL!!

His team won last night 7-0! They are doing so great. His coach is awesome and works with all of the kids and really an all around nice guy. I am so glad that Aaron got such an understanding coach. Of course I did not have my camera!! Stupid me.

GREAT NEWS

We got approved to rent the place we really wanted!!! So we will start moving next week. It will feel so good to have our own place again. I still feel guilty leaving my mom alone. We wont be far but I just do not like the idea of her being alone.

God Does Work In Mysterious Ways

Yesterday morning I was depressed and just discouraged about trying to get pregnant. I told Daniel that if it doesn’t happen this month we are not trying anymore. AT around 11:32 I got an e-mail from Stephanie on the Fit To Be Untied message board group.
Here is the e-mail:
“Tanya,Hi it's Stephanie from FTBU. Jeff and I have been blessed by getting pregnant again. I know you have had a terrible time and I saw your frustration in your email. I know how frustrating it can be. But I have one of those VERY expensive ClearBlue Monitors (200.00 ones). I would like to give it to you if you will accept it. The thing with that is you have to pass it along to someone else on FTBU when you get pregnant and you find out all is well. The test sticks are expensive. Like $49.00 at WalMart BUT they last for like 4 months.SO as my gift to you I would like you to have it. Somewhere online you will find reset instructions or you could call their customer service number. But you have to do this because it remembers your cycle each month. At least that is what I was told. But I never reset it after I got it off EBay and it worked just fine.Please send me an address you would like it sent to!!BTW: I didn't get preggo until the 2nd round of 100mg of Clomid and Robitussin. I think it really helped!! Stick to the Clomid and Robitussin it will get you there (even with short tubes!)”

How wonderful is that. Just as I was ready to give up hope God sent an Angel my way. She is a super awesome lady!! I would have to say this is my sign that I should keep trying!!

Hannah is Turning 3, Yipee

Cool Looking Flower

I Love This

I made this while I was bored today and had to post it.

It comes from my love of everything Hawaiian.

Daniel's Doctor Visit

Daniel had a doctor appointment @1:00pm today for his back. He hurt it like four months ago and it has not gotten any better. The doctor gave him some muscle relaxers and said he needed to life things correctly so that his back could heal. He also found out that he has restless leg syndrome. He is always up in the middle of the night complaining with his legs agravating him. The doctor gave him some medicine for that also. If anyone is wondering none of the meds will affect his fertility!! Of course you know I had to ask that!! Hopefully he will be feeling better soon.

Happy 30th Birthday Daniel

It is hard to believe that my honey is 30. We met when he was 17! Wow that was a long time ago!! I love him even more today then I did yesterday!!
This is us on our first date!! Aww look how cute we were!!!