Wow, Time is Going By.......

Wow, I can't believe that it is June 1st. I have 15 days left till my surgery and 13 days before we leave. I have not been my self the last few days. I have not been able to sleep very well. I even slept through my 5:45 am temp check. I also forgot to take my vitamin yesterday. I have so many things on my mind. I am thinking about all of the things I want to accomplish before the kids go back to school. I am stressed about the trip, my work, the surgery and things that are happening in my life that are out of my control. Hopefully I will be able to clear my head before the surgery so that everything will go good.

I am not scared that anything bad will happen during the surgery. I completely believe in Dr. B's talent for repairing tubes. I just keep worrying about not being able to get pregnant. I had a bipolar coagulation and it just said, “burned multiple times”. I am so praying that the doctor that burned my tubes was not in a bad mood the day he did my TL and that he only burned my tubes two time on each side. I keep thinking what if he butchered my tubes? I totally believe in Dr. B and if anyone can fix it, he can!!

Also, I am a little worried about being away from my children for the four days to. I completely trust the people that my children will be staying with; it is just that I have never been away from my kids for more than a day. I will be 12 hours away and if something happens I cant just rush home and make it all better. Another thing is that I live in Mississippi and we were affected by hurricane Katrina last year (not as bad as most people, Thank God!!) and hurricane season starts soon. I have tried to talk my mom into coming with us so we could bring the kids but she said she couldn’t. Plus my kids are looking forward to having fun while we are gone, everyone except my 5-year-old Aaron. He tells me that he does not want me to go.