Not myself today.......

Today was the first day that my kids went back to daycare for the summer. Marsha had a good time of course, you can put Marsha into any sitution and she will make the best of it. Christopher and Aaron on the other hand did not have a good day. They both haad to write lines for being bad. When I went to pick them up Christopher had been trying to sleep because he had one of his really bad migraines. My poor boy was crying and hurting and feeling sick to his stomach. He said he had a headache because the daycare was to loud. I feel so guilty for putting my kids into daycare in the first place. My mom was keeping them after school in the afternoons, but she can not handle all three of them all day. I wish it was to where I could be with my kids. They grow up so fast and I feel like I am missing so much. I have decided no matter what that I am going to get off in time to pick them up from school when it starts. I feel like those few hours in the afternoon will give me the chance to help with homework and to spend a little time just being there for them with no interuptions.

Tonight while we were eating supper we were talking about our trip to North Carolina to have my tubal reversal surgery. I have been dreading being away from my kids for around four days. The only way that we could take our kids with us would be for another adult to go to. There are no children allowed at the surgery center and Daniel has to be there the whole time or they wont do the surgery. My mom said that she was thinking that maybe she would go to. That would be great. None of us habe been to North Carolina before and it would be a new experience. I really hope she decides to go. Of course it will be a little stressful but I think it will be worth it.

Well I guess I better get some sleep so I can get up in the morning. Maybe the kids will have a better day tomorrow.